[Grovenet] Heartfelt

[Eric Canon]

It amazes me how much of each of us is on display
by just our posts. We don't know necessarily what
a person looks like, unless we know them of
course, but the character of the person is much
more transparent than any of us might guess.

Thus it is that I am going to, once again, call a
spade a spade (and, no, that's not a racist
remark as I have used it here). 

I write some good stuff sometimes. And I write
some really bad stuff sometimes which is
indefensible. I have once again stepped over the
line, and I find I cross the line over and over.
I'm profoundly embarrassed.

If you're an alcoholic, recovery comes from never
touching the stuff. In my case, I am an addict of
venting as if a person had no redeeming features
what so ever. I've done it repeatedly. I'm amazed
I have not been banned from this list. 

I am now, self inflicted style, banned from this
list. This is my last post. It is not healthy for
me or for this cyber community of which I am so
fond (really!) to continue to participate (if
this were alcohol, it would be like booze). 

So you know, last week was my first week in an
anger management class. I'm an excessively angry
person. I don't like that. If the next five weeks
are as good as the first week, I'll be passing
out flowers on the street corner before you know
it. It's sooo helpful, and boy do I need help.
I'm getting some.

Here's to a great future. I will miss you
wonderful people. Even those I villainized I will
miss. This is for a better world, and it's my
decision. I can and have done some good things
for our community, and I will continue to do some
I hope, but not here. And hopefully I will become
less of a mud slinging impassioned nut case.

By the way, Krystof, great response today. I like
it when you write with solutions and seriousness.
Great stuff! And Ron, thanks for trying to get
through to me. You have so much to say and, even
when you're wrong (as in when I don't agree <G>)
there is much food for thought. I learned a lot
from all of you. You are dear to me. All of you.

By the way, after this post I will leave the
list. If anyone has some parting shots, or would
like to vent at me, go right ahead. I'm sure I
deserve it. I don't mean to duck out on what is
due me.